the end of 2010

Time for another boring post. Its the end of 2o1o which means looking back at the past year and looking forward to the new one. This doesn't help when I've been thinking a lot about a lot. Its hard when you have sooo many questions and you don't when or where to find the answers.
Here is what I know. I am married to a wonderful man and have a precious sweet pea named LynnMarie. Unfortunately, they have both been sick this week. Yuck. Still, we have had lots of smiles.

So 2011 is coming and I have no idea whats going to happen. So I am going forward in making some new life goals, not new years goals.

Been thinking mental, physical and spiritual changes. I cant come up with another word for spiritual, because I am not a big fan of that word. My goal here is to get back in the word for real, and live and obey it. Really get honest with what I am commanded to do. I dont want to take the parts I life, but to live it all out. We will see. Its going to be harder than I thought and I know I have to figure out how to stay focused.

Physical- I do not have a choice but to lose weight so in general I need to make better choices in what I eat and when I exercise. Simple words, but now I have to put in action.

Be a better wife, mother, friend, sister, daughter. Simple, I need to make choices that put others before me. Better choices, If I have a hard time, I go back to the cliche, What would Jesus do?

Mentally- I am seriously wondering how mentally insane I am. I am not joking. I have come to the realization that I do not think like most people. Does this make me different? Uhm yes. Does this make me a bit paranoid? Yes...ugh. I will always live this way. God created me this way for a reason, just gotta figure out how I can use my being different for a greater cause..

What about you? Any goals?

Craziness

Its an odd holiday for the Christopher's, one that I would not change.

3 years ago I wondered when we would be a family of 3 at Christmas
2 years ago she was in my heart at Christmas
1 year ago, we saw lights in her eyes at the mystery of the holiday
This year,we see her sweet and tender heart exploring the holiday, questioning things and just loving life.

This year, the Christopher's are sort of forced to have a trimmed down Christmas. Time, finances and put us in a place where I can't go crazy like I usually do. Wow, I love it. Oh we have decorations, gifts a tree. But we also have cuddles, books, music and family time. It feels good.

I have been mentally overwhelmed but different areas of my life. Nothing bad, all has worked out but even church had me stressed for a bit. Im still not sure why I had to dwell on everything but now I am in a good place. I had to learn that sometimes change and pruning is good. We may not see it immediately but we need to have faith that God's plan will work out the way He intended.

The Christopher's will be okay. I have a family that is full of love, silliness, fun and all kinds of stuff. I have friends and family that truly love me. That's such a comfortable feeling.
Although this blog is private, there is still stuff I am hesitant to post. Maybe one day, but not now.


This Christmas I think of the families who are still waiting for there kids to come home. I pray for those in the hospital who know its their last Christmas with their family.

Anyway, God is obviously doing some cool things behind the scenes. Things I cant see quite yet. TO me thats both exciting and scary but I guess I will focus on the exciting part