115. Being alive for 39 years
116. A big change at work coming and the fact that I am not freaked out about it
117. Watching friends step out in faith and watching the blessings fall upon them
118. Sharing a birthday with my sweet hubby
119. Watching my daughter blossom over the past month
120. People who love my girl and are always so encouraging
121. Friends who are buying girl scout cookies even when they are not cookie eaters, yall rock!
122. Facebook- its a hit or miss but thankful for connecting to really old friends
123. College memories- enough said
124. People who really want to get to know you and don't give up on you
125. Employment
126. Basic needs are met- Food,clothing and shelter
127. Forgiveness
I fail at New Years resolutions or goals so this year I am just going to focus on a lot of things I need to be better at.
Here in no particular order are what I need to be better at
1)More time in the Bible and prayer- This is a must. Need to quit whining to the human race and start working on getting my heart right. Simple as that.
2) Spend less time on facebook. Social media is driving my crazy. I love love love keeping in touch with my friends and family but thats about it. As someone who has serious jealous issues, facebook is no help. Everyime I get on there, I feel like I all I see is "look what I got" or "my kid is so awesome that.." or etc. Anyway, I am aware that most people are not like that and its just the way I perceive it, but perhaps I can get rid of some of this yuckiness.
3)Go out of my way to be a better friend. Yall, friendships are hard and require some work. Really they do. I need to quit whining and start serving, helping and sharing. Keeping too much closed up is no good for friendships
4 These are my big goals of the year. I should have used an outline as their lots that go under each heading..HAHA! If you know me, I like to make lists!! THanks for reading friends
102. Church 15 year Birthday celebration- time to connect with old and new friends and a reminder that we are a BIG family with lots of stories
103. Learning site words with my sweet girl- we are both learning something here
104. Weekly fellowship with some sweet ladies doing a study that is taking me way out of my comfort zone
105. LynnMarie got on yellow at school. NO I am not thankful for that, but she was sharing her snow cone so I am thankful she is remembering to share
106. 3 weeks until we celebrate 12 years of marriage
107. My patients and families- I am sometimes too quick to judge and I need to remember to learn from them and I am thankful for that
108. My dad is now retired- the hardest working man I know. I now pray he learns to relax and slow down
109. ABC Familiy- now has an app so I can watch Christmas movies as soon as the season is here!
110. Hints of fall- I have seen a leave here or there turning colors and enjoying the aromas of apples and cinnamon at the grocery
112. Service Men and Women- They do not get the recognition they deserve. Thankful they have the desire to serve and protect us.
113. Forgiveness
114. Thankful for the fact that I deep cleaned two rooms of the house- plenty to go, but at least I started them,,
91. Bible Study- Started a new study that is taking me out of my comfort zone but I know and trust this is needed. Thankful I had the guts to sign up and go to the first week,
92. My dad semi-retired. He is the hardest working man I know. I am thankful for him and he deserves his own post.
93. My daughter has stayed on green all week.
94. Coworkers who let me vent and are not only coworkers, but great friends as well
95. Fall is coming which means Christmas is around the corner
96. Change in attitudes from someone who is very close to me. Its been awesome.
97. The Welcome Home theme at our church I remember growing up in church and the amazing people around me. I am hoping sweet LynnMarie has the same feelings
98. My mom had a great doctors report today..Yahoo
99. I am going home for Thanksgiving which means lots of memory making
100. The fact that my parents gave me a brother of sister.. true awesomeness. I wish I saw both of them awesome
101. Orphan awareness- thankful to friends over the years who have made adoption much more than growing their family..
Now I know that I think differently than most. The majority of people I know would agree over this. I stress over things that many do not. But there are 3 things that when I dwell, take me to a place that its hard to get out of. Not depression, but I sit on these things and either A) do something about it or B) let it control all of my thinking of the day
Things that bother me more than most anything:
1) Finding out people do not like me...Yes its true and I am aware that no one is perfect and not everyone is liked by everyone. But when I find out why individuals do not like me, it kills me. I let it affect my day, week, etc. I even try to change those things so they will like me. I am working on this, I think. I hate that I compare myself to people in the church, no matter what church I am attending
2) Disappointing people- not matter what it is. When I was child and I had an amazing parents, I hated for them to be upset with me.It still happens. I question everyone. Some people think I am a bit paranoid over stuff like this. I am a bit sarcastic so if I think I have offended someone, I will question and apologize for it over and over. I guess you could call me a people-pleaser. Its one of my weaknesses and I am aware of it. I hate that I do it. I wish I did not care so much.
3) Realizing that being a Christian means getting off your butt and doing something for God, doing something for the least of these. My problem is dwelling on the fact that I am not doing this. It is commanded of me and I am not doing it. LAZINESS sucks! Just saying. I hate this, more than anything. I am not being who I was created to be and I desire for this. When I dwell on this, I get down. I think its God convicting me of what His word says. Tired of making excuses. The goods news is that I am surrounded by people who are living the life that I desire and that is so encouraging to me.
More randomness.. But this is just being honest. I have done Bible Study at my church for 6 years now. Love it. Love all the people I have met. No complaints, its just been amazing. So now I have 4 days to decide which study to do. This has never been an issue. I have had a few ladies in all of my classes and now it seems like I am going to be breaking out and doing something myself, which scares me to death. Not a big fan of getting to know new people (see the people pleaser part). It takes me a long time to open up and share things. But then there is the petty part of me that has been waiting years to do to Bible Study with some ladies I admire and have known a long time but have wanted to do a study with. I think I have totally missed the big picture. Bible Study is an opportunity to dig deeper in my relationship with God. This season, I have been concentrating on the wrong stuff! What the heck? SO now, I am struggling with doing a study that my mom did 20 years ago and I think would be great for me or a study that would cause to go to places that scare me and would force me share and get over some of my issues. So if you are reading this, pray that I find peace about this. I know this may be a silly prayer to some of you but its really stressing me out..
80. A new school with new opportunities for our sweet girl
81. Friends who checked on this momma while her girl went to kindergarten for the first time
82. The ability not to hover and let her attempt the bus like a big girl
83. Good finds on garage sale sites so LynnMarie can finally have a princess room
84. A friend who had a end of treatment celebration
85. tax free weekend
86. A call off from work so LynnMarie would not miss her Sneak a Peak and mom could go with her 87. Friends who are getting so close to adding to their family through adoption
88. Swim time this week and watching our sweet girl learn to swim
89. the anticipation of Fall Bible Study
90. The Bible- so much is in there and its still relevant. I think that's just cool
70. Beautiful people who are not afraid to share their imperfections
71. Rain- I know we have a lot of it but its needed and gives us time to spend together inside
72. The fact that I am ready to embrace change instead of running from it and I am actually looking forward to it
73. Family vacations- 7 days on a big boat with aunts, uncles and cousins helped make some great memories
74. Holding a baby monkey
75. Bags of art supplies to keep us busy on rainy days
76. New families coming together because of adoption
77. A husband who takes care of dinner many nights
78. Disney Channel movies
79. Fall is not far away
